Bed Time Stories

Fill thier little heads, with bed time stories

Of kingdoms, castles and maiden's hair

Tell them of a place with Happy Endings

And where the rules are fair.

Let them dream and float away

On clouds and stars and feathery wings

Let their imaginations run wild

of joy and laughter and wonderful things.

For you're only young once, that's what they say

But what they do not tell you

Is that you're only as old as you want to be

So I'll stay young in this life through and through.

Breath Away

Tonight, I saw my first shooting star.

It was beautiful... no other words.

They say that yesterday is history

They say that tomorrow is a mystery

But today, it is a gift

And that is why they call it the Present.

DISNEY!!

So I'm back!

I  was going to film me on rides, but I thought better of it on the big rides as I'd probably drop the camera lol and when I was filming on POTC, the camera ran out of battery! lol  but yeah, here ya go, sorry its a day late!

Sorry about the crap sound levels and stuff, my camera isn't great for videos lol

Ding Dong Freddie's Getting High! (again)

Seeing as it's my last blog till after Christmas, I just wanted to wish every one of you the bestest, merriest, greatest Christmas yet! 

Always remember:

FREDDIE LOVES YOU!!!

xxxx

Merry Christmas!

*SUNDAY VIDEO CURRENTLY UPLOADING...*

All The Marmitey Goodness A Girl Could Need...

Ahh, what a birthday that was...

Started off getting my hair dyed and cut, which was much needed!  Then into town with my nan to get food for her chicken and other bits that she needed.  I also bought myself a tail for my cat out fit.  We then went on to the whole family photo shoot for my nan and pépére's golden wedding present.  It was nice to see all the family again, laughing and chatting and generally being the nutters we always are when we're all together :)

I then drove off to the co-op to buy pizza and fizzy drinks for my friends, rushed home and started to get dressed up and the little black cat from aristocats.  The look on Thomas and Dave's faces as they came around the corner to see my face painter half black was so funny.  One by one team marmite reunited itself, and it was like we had never left, which was awesome in so many ways.  We played 40 40 in the dark, which was SO much fun and funny, hyperness spread itself pretty quickly lol.  The first time we hid, Thomas and I hid in the shadow of one of the hedges, so we could see everything that was going on, but the counter couldn't see us because of the light behind us.  Thomas got pretty confused at how she couldn't see us, but she walked straight past us and we legged it to the den to tag ourselves in.  Watching Big Dave run across the lawn really obviously and not get caught was probably one of the funniest things I'd seen in a long time.   We played the Hokie Kokie hahaha!  Oh how I've missed Helen's laugh... (she loved her present by the way lol)  We also watched a very rude pantomime called Sinderella, in which the main character was called Buttons, which was funny in itself seeing as me and Tori call ourselves Buttons lol.

I have also got given probably the best presents ever this year.  A melodica, a harmonica, Freddie figurine, an AKG C1000S (in your pocket, or are you just happy to see me?), awesome tshirts, some posh smellies and a Where's Wally Poster....  just totally awesome, so thank you very much guys :)

I can;t believe I'm going to Disney tomorrow...! yay ^^

la la laa la, la laaaa!

Roll On Last Year Of Teenagehood!  :D

Melooooodica!

This year, I've already recieved THE best birthday presents!  I go my awesome figurine of Freddie Mercury from Helen, and today Thomas gave me a MELODICA!!!  WOOOAAAHHH!!!

WOOOOOOOOO!

I've just been playing on the greatest birthday present EVER!!!  HAHA!!!

Thank you!!! =^-^=

La la laaaa! Sing song a long a carol!

I HAVE A CHRISTMAS TREE!!!

I haven't really had a chance to blog properly since being back, but yeah.. here we go I guess lol

When I got back, my heart was so filled with excitement, that I ran into the lounge, and my suspicions were confirmed.  There stood a decorate Christmas tree, with presents already underneath it!  My family decided to give me a surprise, which was just awesome and great and fantastic.  Now my lounge smell truly of Christmas, and I'm going to decorate the staircase at some point today :)

Yay!  I got top see Marina!! which TOTALLY kicked butts.  It was kinda unreal...  seemed like only yesterday that we were saying goodbye before uni.  And there we were in the same place, totally hyper and letting out 2 months worth of built up madness haha.  It was so funny!  I will see her in a month, which will be awesome :)  

Another great day today methinks.  Decorating, wrapping presents, seeing friends :)

Chell-oh

Wow.  just Wow.  What a day.  I cannot believe that I was in Hatfield this morning.. well yesterday technically lol.  I've just dropped marina home.  we chatted and watched School of Rock, after watching a totally rock out awesome version of We Will Rock You.  Thomas' bass playing was just so awesomely impressive, he really did shine.  

Discombobulations!  It feels like I never left Jersey!  The same crew of Marina, Tori, Helen and I, that watched the Queen tribute band together.  And how awesome it was to see everybody, just, so good to see them all.  I was practically (and stupidly) speechless and dumb for most of the night.  Only letting out uncontrollable bursts of laughter from good old team marmite jokes and the ginger battle that Helen totally lost :P

*happysigh* It's gonna be a great christmas.  I have so many wishes that I want to come true this Christmas...

Any who, enough gibberish blabbering of discombobulated bewilderness.  Night to you all, and a nice long lie in, in my gigantic bed for me :)

Orrr - Sum.

What a day!

A morning of cancelled lectures, so extra time to clean up and get in some studying.  Hand in coursework time.  STRESS OUT!  One of our lecturers sent us in the complete wrong direction, and so ended up going in circles and it took us ages.  And there was only half an hour to do all this including submitting dean's bloody course work too, so I was pulling my hair out and getting myself in a state.  

But some kind words of reassurance calmed me down, I breathed nice and slowly, and I was the most chilled out and concentrate I've ever been in any exam.  Bloody miracle. :)

And I'm home tomorrow!  Ah I can't wait to see everybody... ahhh.  Just gotta finish packing now :P  A cock up in the laundry system means my washing is STILL in the tumble dryers lol.  But meh, wont take me long to fold it up neatly and pack up :)

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOP!!!

YAY!

I'm in SUCH a good mood!

Home tomorrow, see my family, jump on my gigantic and overly comfy bed, play Ronald, and then in the evening, I get to watch my favourite show, with my favourite music, in the same room as my favourite people.  =^-^=  

I'm also going to force my brother to watch Star Trek movies with me too this holiday :)

Then my birthday, 40 40 in le dark, then off to disney for Christmas!!! yay!!! I cannot WAIT!!

This is going to be a very bright day :)

LIFE'STOOSHORTTODRINKSEMISKIMMEDMILK.FULLFATALLTHEWAY.YUMMY.

mmmm

*heavysigh*
Amazing what five minutes of relaxing in a pretty non stop day does to you.

I was totally wide awake an hour ago.  Then I decided I had 5 or so minutes to close my eyes and sit in the dark and listen to soft music, whilst rocking gently on my chair. I turned off the noise on skype from people trying to get me to allow them to copy my work that they should have done when they went along the course too.  So I thought bollocks.  Switched it off, and off I went to my favourite place in the whole wide world.  lost in music.

And now I'm thinking that was a bad mistake.  All I want to do now is go to bed.  Im just so so so so so so so tired.  hmm.  Oh well.  I shall glue my eyes open and study a bit more seeing as it's only 8pm. 

Or maybe I'll just close my eyes, and drift off for a while.  

Like WoW!

Adrift...

I went down the hill for my eye brow wax early this morning..

As I was walking back, head full of questions and thoughts, this song came on my ipod and freezing rain gently fell on my numb nose and face.  And I just felt all the fibers in my body give a great relieving sigh, and I just felt... numb.  Such a soft song, with such lovely, true lyrics.

Words that are so right.  No one ever sings alone.  And it's true.  The little things, that are worth everything.

Your voice is adrift
I can't expect it to sing to me
As if I was the only one

I'll follow you
Like the leaf that's following the sun
When will my weight be too much for you?
When will these ideas really be my own?
Cause this moment keeps on moving
We were never meant to hold on

This was a scene worth waking up for
When I woke up
You planted me in my own body
Don't know why
But somehow it just feels so wrong
When you're sad I will be lonely
But when you rise again I'll become the sun
I will shine down upon you
As if you were the only one

Your voice is your own, I can't protect it
You'll have to sing
A verse no one has ever known

Don't be afraid
Cause no one ever sings alone
Your weight will never be too much for me
Your ideas have always been your own
And this moment keeps on moving
We were never meant to hold on

Milk Junkie

Freddie, the Milk Junkie, is currently eating french bread, mayonnaise and smoked salmon... yum.

This is my excited face:

Slightly creepy eh?

How Harmoiniously Harmonisingly Harmonious!

As I listen to my itunes random, I find myself unconsciously singing what ever harmony pops into my head, even if I don't know the song that well, or the lyrics, I'll just pick the tune up and hum what ever harmony pops into my head, sometimes with absolutely no thought.

Which totally ROCKS!

Yet, when I'm asked to write harmonies for somebody or something, I often jam and cant think of anything.

Which totally SUCKS!

But yeah... sorry about the randomness of the blog... I'm incredibly excited and hyper right now... so hyper, I've gone a complete clean up attack of neatness, cleaning every corner and cupboard of my room, so that I'm certain nothing will rot over the Christmas season, so that I come back to find my walls all furry and vines growing out of them LOL!

The moon and stars are incredibly pretty and particularly bright tonight, probably due to the greatness of the day

 =^-^= (meooow!)

Freddie will be coming  HOME!!!....

YAY!

Marina, RING ME NOW!

If I Can Be Bothered... Which Isn't Very Likely...

This post, is about, BOOBS. yes, BOOBS.

Boobies.  I'm going to be brave, and talk, about, boobs.

hmm.. I know it might sound weird, but I was in the bath, looked down, and was like, would I ever get a boob job?

My boobs aren't that big, but some people say they are, some say they're small... size in the eye of the beholder? lol

I actually considered for a minute, that I would.  And then I was like, no, never. haha.  I had a moment of insecurity about my body, picking out all the "flabby" bits and wondering why my boobs aren't any bigger than they are.  Why do they need to be bigger?  Do girls take the topic WAY out of context? Being around only guys for so long has taught me that most of them, don't actually care, and just think of their girl friends as beautiful all over.  Which is nice, I think.  And how it bloody well should be.  Fake boobs beautiful?  Naa.  Boobs, just Boobs.  Indeed. lol.  what an awkward topic.  I guess my blog is about as close as I;m gonna get to a girlie chat lol.  Please reply girlies, on blogs or by comments. :)

Chopping up your skin to put fake bags inside, does not sound nice. at all.  I try to wrap my brain around the issue, and wonder why girls do that to themselves.. I watched a program about girls being so insecure with their bodies that they thought that a boob job would be the only way out, the only way to make themselves.  It actually made me cry, so see what these girls put themselves through for, what, a man?  If that's all he cares about, then he's not worth it.

I do however, have the upmost respect for girls who know what they want, go get it, for THEM. no one else. Just themselves.  Good for them I say.

Would I?  Nope.  Freddie boobs will stay Freddie boobs. :)

LOL.  I'm gonna go to bed now haha. *cough*

OoooooHhh

Hmm... So I have my first university exam tomorrow... Kind of shitting my pants, but hey, at least the subject is on one of my favourite lectures of the week: 

INSTRUMENTATIONNN!!!

The exam will be on the ranges and tuning of each instrument on the orchestra, how the orchestra is placed, numbers etc, examples of each section of the orchestra in compositions, and why they are good examples... errrmm.... listening questions... an essay question... the differences between real and virtual emulated instruments, comments etc... argh! Oh well, I'm pretty sure it's now settled nicely in my very busy head. A mixture of the Brandenburg concertos, One Day Like This, Rite of Spring, Bolero, L'Histoire Du Soldat, Ionisation and the Dirty Dozen rambling round in my brain, what a delightful mix of horror and joyous verses lol

I'm not looking forward to my lecture next week, however, as it is on the biology of the ear and things like that.. how humans "listen" etc... which is all very interesting and stuff... la la la!  The idea of science in music, I just can't get my head around for some reason.  The two subjects just don't go together in my head!  *shrug*

I have just finished all my colourful notes, and they now cover half my wall next to my bed... so I'm going to lie there and read and sing for the next couple o' hours, chill as such.

Went to the doctors for my ear today.. Got given a prescription for some drops to clear my inflamed right canal... then gotta go back for "further tests" and an ear hoover next week... fun times!

Hey ho... on a random note... I LOVE my mac!!! :D yay!

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Sex... DruGs and rOck 'n' roLlin on and oN.

Earlier... I was asked if I'm happy.

To which I replied "yup yup".

That was not a lie.  I've never been happier, spending everyday writing songs, orchestral pieces, anything that just happens to melt out of my brain fibers and into my mac, converted into sound waves and making their way back into my brain in concepts such as beauty, freedom, love... listen.

Yet two seconds after the conversation finished, I burst into tears.  I don't know why.  Probably a mixture of things... tiredness and confusion I guess.  Work.

I've just spent the last couple of hours talking to my family at home.  Sash went next door and played Ronald for me, his beautiful sound, even through converted electronic wave forms, cheered me up so much.

I've been listening a lot to a CD that my brother gave me last weekend.  Cow Boy Bebop.  The most amazing mixture of music I've ever heard on one disc.  Shivers.  The music is beautiful, gritty, silenced, wanting, longing, clever... just all those feelings and words that cant describe such an odd sort of beauty.  I love it.  It makes me dance. 

I know Marina would love it.  There's one piece of music called Space Lion, which has, just, one of the most beautiful saxophone solos I've ever heard, surrounded by perfect reverb, that you just have to listen to in the dark, with nothing around you, and your eyes closed.  There's only one other song I've heard, with a saxophone solo in that I also have to do that with.  It's just so beautiful.  And just as you're lost, african choirs and beats trail in and add that bit of excitement to it, whilst keeping that internal feeling of firey warmth inside your chest.

I guess the fact that I'm not going to see Marina this Christmas is hitting hard.  All I want to do is give her a hug, yet time wont allow for that it seems.  Typical that she leaves for Spain on the morning of the afternoon that I get back to Jersey.

I've lost more weight.  I've been eating healthily, and rather a lot... so I don't know why. 

Only two weeks and I shall be turning 19.  At home.  With friends and family.  40 40 in the dark, like good old times.  I hope there will be a Christmas tree in my lounge.  The perfect smell of the pines fill my house, and Christmas is truly there.

Hmm.  It's late and I should be in bed.  My head is deadly silent, even though I can feel music swirling round and round and round...  I feel as though I'm fighting to climb up an increasingly slippery slope.  Being amongst only boys is really getting to me now.  Don't get me wrong, I've made some really good friends here.  It's just.. oh I don't know what I'm rambling on about... hey, I've got a clear mind now, and I'm home in less than two weeks, so I don't know why I'm getting down so easily.  I'm just finding it a bit tough.

And I really wish the ringing in my ears would go away.  Probably my brain making it up, or paying too much attention to it... through desperately never wanting my hearing to fade, or to vanish completely.  Imagine never being able to listen.

I've just had my head out my window... clear stars and beautiful, as the steam rises out of my mouth in a simple puff of my lungs, my eye lids close, the music and dim light from my mac calm me even more...

That's what I think I love most about the winter... clear, pretty skies, and cold air pressing against skin.

Softy... I'm currently listening to Danny Elfman's "Wilbur's homecoming" - 9 minutes of absolute beauty.  Jack Johnson, Angel, Adrift.

So little time, yet - time that moves so painfully slowly.  Bed time.

la la laaaaaaa

isn't funny how music does that to you?

Once learnt, never forgotten as such.

At this particular moment in time, I have got song that I learnt when I was in the beaulieu primary school choir...

"time on our hands, nothing to talk about and nothing to do, sept sit here with you..."

"we'll be rocking and a rolling till the coming of the morning, we'll be rockin and a rollin till the break of day..."  "a wap bap a lou bap a wap bam boom..."

*cough*

They just sort of popped up haha no idea how I remember them!  *shrug* 

WOOP!!

My god am I excited!!

My violin solo composition has been selected (one of 6) to be played by a professional violinist in a workshop tomorrow! :D

Wow, I'm so chuffed!  I just hope mine wasn't selected as an example of "what not to do"! lol

yaaaay!! It's gonna be recorded and everything so it'll be awesome to have in my portfolio any way!    =^-^=

Freddie is very very very very very excited! looooooooooooooooool!

Like WOW!

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http://radiobeaulieu.com/

CHECK IT OUT!

There's Something About Wednesday...

I don't know what it is, but I always seem to get this feeling in my chest that makes me feel like I'm top on the world, and it always comes around on Wednesdays...

My itunes random always seems to play those kind of songs, that makes me wanna dance and smile all day long.. memories and laughs come back and make me feel so lucky to have such great friends...

No idea why, but my new set of eyes seem to refresh themselves, my mind set for work is on its fullest setting and my orchestra plays grand concertos and explodes with ideas...   not always ones I manage to get down, but it just makes me feel so happy and lucky to be a musician...

I've also been offered Jazz piano lessons and I really cant wait!  I watch and listen to the greats and have always wanted to be able to play as they do, in that jazzy style where they just seem to be able to let go.

Oh, and I've also got tinsel and fairy lights up, so that familiar cosiness and warmth of Christmas is there too and makes things even better... 

Ah, good old (orange) wednesdays :)