Bed Time Stories

Fill thier little heads, with bed time stories

Of kingdoms, castles and maiden's hair

Tell them of a place with Happy Endings

And where the rules are fair.

Let them dream and float away

On clouds and stars and feathery wings

Let their imaginations run wild

of joy and laughter and wonderful things.

For you're only young once, that's what they say

But what they do not tell you

Is that you're only as old as you want to be

So I'll stay young in this life through and through.

Breath Away

Tonight, I saw my first shooting star.

It was beautiful... no other words.

They say that yesterday is history

They say that tomorrow is a mystery

But today, it is a gift

And that is why they call it the Present.

DISNEY!!

So I'm back!

I  was going to film me on rides, but I thought better of it on the big rides as I'd probably drop the camera lol and when I was filming on POTC, the camera ran out of battery! lol  but yeah, here ya go, sorry its a day late!

Sorry about the crap sound levels and stuff, my camera isn't great for videos lol

Ding Dong Freddie's Getting High! (again)

Seeing as it's my last blog till after Christmas, I just wanted to wish every one of you the bestest, merriest, greatest Christmas yet! 

Always remember:

FREDDIE LOVES YOU!!!

xxxx

Merry Christmas!

*SUNDAY VIDEO CURRENTLY UPLOADING...*

All The Marmitey Goodness A Girl Could Need...

Ahh, what a birthday that was...

Started off getting my hair dyed and cut, which was much needed!  Then into town with my nan to get food for her chicken and other bits that she needed.  I also bought myself a tail for my cat out fit.  We then went on to the whole family photo shoot for my nan and pépére's golden wedding present.  It was nice to see all the family again, laughing and chatting and generally being the nutters we always are when we're all together :)

I then drove off to the co-op to buy pizza and fizzy drinks for my friends, rushed home and started to get dressed up and the little black cat from aristocats.  The look on Thomas and Dave's faces as they came around the corner to see my face painter half black was so funny.  One by one team marmite reunited itself, and it was like we had never left, which was awesome in so many ways.  We played 40 40 in the dark, which was SO much fun and funny, hyperness spread itself pretty quickly lol.  The first time we hid, Thomas and I hid in the shadow of one of the hedges, so we could see everything that was going on, but the counter couldn't see us because of the light behind us.  Thomas got pretty confused at how she couldn't see us, but she walked straight past us and we legged it to the den to tag ourselves in.  Watching Big Dave run across the lawn really obviously and not get caught was probably one of the funniest things I'd seen in a long time.   We played the Hokie Kokie hahaha!  Oh how I've missed Helen's laugh... (she loved her present by the way lol)  We also watched a very rude pantomime called Sinderella, in which the main character was called Buttons, which was funny in itself seeing as me and Tori call ourselves Buttons lol.

I have also got given probably the best presents ever this year.  A melodica, a harmonica, Freddie figurine, an AKG C1000S (in your pocket, or are you just happy to see me?), awesome tshirts, some posh smellies and a Where's Wally Poster....  just totally awesome, so thank you very much guys :)

I can;t believe I'm going to Disney tomorrow...! yay ^^

la la laa la, la laaaa!

Roll On Last Year Of Teenagehood!  :D

Melooooodica!

This year, I've already recieved THE best birthday presents!  I go my awesome figurine of Freddie Mercury from Helen, and today Thomas gave me a MELODICA!!!  WOOOAAAHHH!!!

WOOOOOOOOO!

I've just been playing on the greatest birthday present EVER!!!  HAHA!!!

Thank you!!! =^-^=

La la laaaa! Sing song a long a carol!

I HAVE A CHRISTMAS TREE!!!

I haven't really had a chance to blog properly since being back, but yeah.. here we go I guess lol

When I got back, my heart was so filled with excitement, that I ran into the lounge, and my suspicions were confirmed.  There stood a decorate Christmas tree, with presents already underneath it!  My family decided to give me a surprise, which was just awesome and great and fantastic.  Now my lounge smell truly of Christmas, and I'm going to decorate the staircase at some point today :)

Yay!  I got top see Marina!! which TOTALLY kicked butts.  It was kinda unreal...  seemed like only yesterday that we were saying goodbye before uni.  And there we were in the same place, totally hyper and letting out 2 months worth of built up madness haha.  It was so funny!  I will see her in a month, which will be awesome :)  

Another great day today methinks.  Decorating, wrapping presents, seeing friends :)

Chell-oh

Wow.  just Wow.  What a day.  I cannot believe that I was in Hatfield this morning.. well yesterday technically lol.  I've just dropped marina home.  we chatted and watched School of Rock, after watching a totally rock out awesome version of We Will Rock You.  Thomas' bass playing was just so awesomely impressive, he really did shine.  

Discombobulations!  It feels like I never left Jersey!  The same crew of Marina, Tori, Helen and I, that watched the Queen tribute band together.  And how awesome it was to see everybody, just, so good to see them all.  I was practically (and stupidly) speechless and dumb for most of the night.  Only letting out uncontrollable bursts of laughter from good old team marmite jokes and the ginger battle that Helen totally lost :P

*happysigh* It's gonna be a great christmas.  I have so many wishes that I want to come true this Christmas...

Any who, enough gibberish blabbering of discombobulated bewilderness.  Night to you all, and a nice long lie in, in my gigantic bed for me :)

Orrr - Sum.

What a day!

A morning of cancelled lectures, so extra time to clean up and get in some studying.  Hand in coursework time.  STRESS OUT!  One of our lecturers sent us in the complete wrong direction, and so ended up going in circles and it took us ages.  And there was only half an hour to do all this including submitting dean's bloody course work too, so I was pulling my hair out and getting myself in a state.  

But some kind words of reassurance calmed me down, I breathed nice and slowly, and I was the most chilled out and concentrate I've ever been in any exam.  Bloody miracle. :)

And I'm home tomorrow!  Ah I can't wait to see everybody... ahhh.  Just gotta finish packing now :P  A cock up in the laundry system means my washing is STILL in the tumble dryers lol.  But meh, wont take me long to fold it up neatly and pack up :)

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOP!!!

YAY!

I'm in SUCH a good mood!

Home tomorrow, see my family, jump on my gigantic and overly comfy bed, play Ronald, and then in the evening, I get to watch my favourite show, with my favourite music, in the same room as my favourite people.  =^-^=  

I'm also going to force my brother to watch Star Trek movies with me too this holiday :)

Then my birthday, 40 40 in le dark, then off to disney for Christmas!!! yay!!! I cannot WAIT!!

This is going to be a very bright day :)

LIFE'STOOSHORTTODRINKSEMISKIMMEDMILK.FULLFATALLTHEWAY.YUMMY.

mmmm

*heavysigh*
Amazing what five minutes of relaxing in a pretty non stop day does to you.

I was totally wide awake an hour ago.  Then I decided I had 5 or so minutes to close my eyes and sit in the dark and listen to soft music, whilst rocking gently on my chair. I turned off the noise on skype from people trying to get me to allow them to copy my work that they should have done when they went along the course too.  So I thought bollocks.  Switched it off, and off I went to my favourite place in the whole wide world.  lost in music.

And now I'm thinking that was a bad mistake.  All I want to do now is go to bed.  Im just so so so so so so so tired.  hmm.  Oh well.  I shall glue my eyes open and study a bit more seeing as it's only 8pm. 

Or maybe I'll just close my eyes, and drift off for a while.  

Like WoW!

Adrift...

I went down the hill for my eye brow wax early this morning..

As I was walking back, head full of questions and thoughts, this song came on my ipod and freezing rain gently fell on my numb nose and face.  And I just felt all the fibers in my body give a great relieving sigh, and I just felt... numb.  Such a soft song, with such lovely, true lyrics.

Words that are so right.  No one ever sings alone.  And it's true.  The little things, that are worth everything.

Your voice is adrift
I can't expect it to sing to me
As if I was the only one

I'll follow you
Like the leaf that's following the sun
When will my weight be too much for you?
When will these ideas really be my own?
Cause this moment keeps on moving
We were never meant to hold on

This was a scene worth waking up for
When I woke up
You planted me in my own body
Don't know why
But somehow it just feels so wrong
When you're sad I will be lonely
But when you rise again I'll become the sun
I will shine down upon you
As if you were the only one

Your voice is your own, I can't protect it
You'll have to sing
A verse no one has ever known

Don't be afraid
Cause no one ever sings alone
Your weight will never be too much for me
Your ideas have always been your own
And this moment keeps on moving
We were never meant to hold on

Milk Junkie

Freddie, the Milk Junkie, is currently eating french bread, mayonnaise and smoked salmon... yum.

This is my excited face:

Slightly creepy eh?

How Harmoiniously Harmonisingly Harmonious!

As I listen to my itunes random, I find myself unconsciously singing what ever harmony pops into my head, even if I don't know the song that well, or the lyrics, I'll just pick the tune up and hum what ever harmony pops into my head, sometimes with absolutely no thought.

Which totally ROCKS!

Yet, when I'm asked to write harmonies for somebody or something, I often jam and cant think of anything.

Which totally SUCKS!

But yeah... sorry about the randomness of the blog... I'm incredibly excited and hyper right now... so hyper, I've gone a complete clean up attack of neatness, cleaning every corner and cupboard of my room, so that I'm certain nothing will rot over the Christmas season, so that I come back to find my walls all furry and vines growing out of them LOL!

The moon and stars are incredibly pretty and particularly bright tonight, probably due to the greatness of the day

 =^-^= (meooow!)

Freddie will be coming  HOME!!!....

YAY!

Marina, RING ME NOW!

If I Can Be Bothered... Which Isn't Very Likely...

This post, is about, BOOBS. yes, BOOBS.

Boobies.  I'm going to be brave, and talk, about, boobs.

hmm.. I know it might sound weird, but I was in the bath, looked down, and was like, would I ever get a boob job?

My boobs aren't that big, but some people say they are, some say they're small... size in the eye of the beholder? lol

I actually considered for a minute, that I would.  And then I was like, no, never. haha.  I had a moment of insecurity about my body, picking out all the "flabby" bits and wondering why my boobs aren't any bigger than they are.  Why do they need to be bigger?  Do girls take the topic WAY out of context? Being around only guys for so long has taught me that most of them, don't actually care, and just think of their girl friends as beautiful all over.  Which is nice, I think.  And how it bloody well should be.  Fake boobs beautiful?  Naa.  Boobs, just Boobs.  Indeed. lol.  what an awkward topic.  I guess my blog is about as close as I;m gonna get to a girlie chat lol.  Please reply girlies, on blogs or by comments. :)

Chopping up your skin to put fake bags inside, does not sound nice. at all.  I try to wrap my brain around the issue, and wonder why girls do that to themselves.. I watched a program about girls being so insecure with their bodies that they thought that a boob job would be the only way out, the only way to make themselves.  It actually made me cry, so see what these girls put themselves through for, what, a man?  If that's all he cares about, then he's not worth it.

I do however, have the upmost respect for girls who know what they want, go get it, for THEM. no one else. Just themselves.  Good for them I say.

Would I?  Nope.  Freddie boobs will stay Freddie boobs. :)

LOL.  I'm gonna go to bed now haha. *cough*

OoooooHhh

Hmm... So I have my first university exam tomorrow... Kind of shitting my pants, but hey, at least the subject is on one of my favourite lectures of the week: 

INSTRUMENTATIONNN!!!

The exam will be on the ranges and tuning of each instrument on the orchestra, how the orchestra is placed, numbers etc, examples of each section of the orchestra in compositions, and why they are good examples... errrmm.... listening questions... an essay question... the differences between real and virtual emulated instruments, comments etc... argh! Oh well, I'm pretty sure it's now settled nicely in my very busy head. A mixture of the Brandenburg concertos, One Day Like This, Rite of Spring, Bolero, L'Histoire Du Soldat, Ionisation and the Dirty Dozen rambling round in my brain, what a delightful mix of horror and joyous verses lol

I'm not looking forward to my lecture next week, however, as it is on the biology of the ear and things like that.. how humans "listen" etc... which is all very interesting and stuff... la la la!  The idea of science in music, I just can't get my head around for some reason.  The two subjects just don't go together in my head!  *shrug*

I have just finished all my colourful notes, and they now cover half my wall next to my bed... so I'm going to lie there and read and sing for the next couple o' hours, chill as such.

Went to the doctors for my ear today.. Got given a prescription for some drops to clear my inflamed right canal... then gotta go back for "further tests" and an ear hoover next week... fun times!

Hey ho... on a random note... I LOVE my mac!!! :D yay!

oneawesomefreak.com

Sex... DruGs and rOck 'n' roLlin on and oN.

Earlier... I was asked if I'm happy.

To which I replied "yup yup".

That was not a lie.  I've never been happier, spending everyday writing songs, orchestral pieces, anything that just happens to melt out of my brain fibers and into my mac, converted into sound waves and making their way back into my brain in concepts such as beauty, freedom, love... listen.

Yet two seconds after the conversation finished, I burst into tears.  I don't know why.  Probably a mixture of things... tiredness and confusion I guess.  Work.

I've just spent the last couple of hours talking to my family at home.  Sash went next door and played Ronald for me, his beautiful sound, even through converted electronic wave forms, cheered me up so much.

I've been listening a lot to a CD that my brother gave me last weekend.  Cow Boy Bebop.  The most amazing mixture of music I've ever heard on one disc.  Shivers.  The music is beautiful, gritty, silenced, wanting, longing, clever... just all those feelings and words that cant describe such an odd sort of beauty.  I love it.  It makes me dance. 

I know Marina would love it.  There's one piece of music called Space Lion, which has, just, one of the most beautiful saxophone solos I've ever heard, surrounded by perfect reverb, that you just have to listen to in the dark, with nothing around you, and your eyes closed.  There's only one other song I've heard, with a saxophone solo in that I also have to do that with.  It's just so beautiful.  And just as you're lost, african choirs and beats trail in and add that bit of excitement to it, whilst keeping that internal feeling of firey warmth inside your chest.

I guess the fact that I'm not going to see Marina this Christmas is hitting hard.  All I want to do is give her a hug, yet time wont allow for that it seems.  Typical that she leaves for Spain on the morning of the afternoon that I get back to Jersey.

I've lost more weight.  I've been eating healthily, and rather a lot... so I don't know why. 

Only two weeks and I shall be turning 19.  At home.  With friends and family.  40 40 in the dark, like good old times.  I hope there will be a Christmas tree in my lounge.  The perfect smell of the pines fill my house, and Christmas is truly there.

Hmm.  It's late and I should be in bed.  My head is deadly silent, even though I can feel music swirling round and round and round...  I feel as though I'm fighting to climb up an increasingly slippery slope.  Being amongst only boys is really getting to me now.  Don't get me wrong, I've made some really good friends here.  It's just.. oh I don't know what I'm rambling on about... hey, I've got a clear mind now, and I'm home in less than two weeks, so I don't know why I'm getting down so easily.  I'm just finding it a bit tough.

And I really wish the ringing in my ears would go away.  Probably my brain making it up, or paying too much attention to it... through desperately never wanting my hearing to fade, or to vanish completely.  Imagine never being able to listen.

I've just had my head out my window... clear stars and beautiful, as the steam rises out of my mouth in a simple puff of my lungs, my eye lids close, the music and dim light from my mac calm me even more...

That's what I think I love most about the winter... clear, pretty skies, and cold air pressing against skin.

Softy... I'm currently listening to Danny Elfman's "Wilbur's homecoming" - 9 minutes of absolute beauty.  Jack Johnson, Angel, Adrift.

So little time, yet - time that moves so painfully slowly.  Bed time.

la la laaaaaaa

isn't funny how music does that to you?

Once learnt, never forgotten as such.

At this particular moment in time, I have got song that I learnt when I was in the beaulieu primary school choir...

"time on our hands, nothing to talk about and nothing to do, sept sit here with you..."

"we'll be rocking and a rolling till the coming of the morning, we'll be rockin and a rollin till the break of day..."  "a wap bap a lou bap a wap bam boom..."

*cough*

They just sort of popped up haha no idea how I remember them!  *shrug* 

WOOP!!

My god am I excited!!

My violin solo composition has been selected (one of 6) to be played by a professional violinist in a workshop tomorrow! :D

Wow, I'm so chuffed!  I just hope mine wasn't selected as an example of "what not to do"! lol

yaaaay!! It's gonna be recorded and everything so it'll be awesome to have in my portfolio any way!    =^-^=

Freddie is very very very very very excited! looooooooooooooooool!

Like WOW!

I was just browing the internet when I stumbled across THIS!!

http://radiobeaulieu.com/

CHECK IT OUT!

There's Something About Wednesday...

I don't know what it is, but I always seem to get this feeling in my chest that makes me feel like I'm top on the world, and it always comes around on Wednesdays...

My itunes random always seems to play those kind of songs, that makes me wanna dance and smile all day long.. memories and laughs come back and make me feel so lucky to have such great friends...

No idea why, but my new set of eyes seem to refresh themselves, my mind set for work is on its fullest setting and my orchestra plays grand concertos and explodes with ideas...   not always ones I manage to get down, but it just makes me feel so happy and lucky to be a musician...

I've also been offered Jazz piano lessons and I really cant wait!  I watch and listen to the greats and have always wanted to be able to play as they do, in that jazzy style where they just seem to be able to let go.

Oh, and I've also got tinsel and fairy lights up, so that familiar cosiness and warmth of Christmas is there too and makes things even better... 

Ah, good old (orange) wednesdays :)

And all that jazz n bollocks.

Forgotten my pass port.  Shit.

Got through with uni ID. Phew.

Wrote a whole new funky song.  Yay.

Got my phone stolen.  Bollocks. :(

Got on the plane with no passport. Way Hay.

I'M HOME!!!  ahhhhhh. :)

I came home for my Dad's big five-oh.  50 already lol.  It was an awesome party, and so much fun to be back amongst the lunacy that is my family!

And today, I get to see friends, play Ronald and drive my lovely Enterprise :D

BOOOOOOM...

I woke up this morning feeling fine then all of a sudden I get the worst tummy ache of my life.  I couldn't sit up straight and I felt like I was gonna puke.  Broke out in sweats and shivers.  I tried to walk down the corridor but my legs were so shaky I wasn't going anywhere!

I'm feeling better now I've eaten and had a nice long shower, but still feeling quite dodgey.  Who knows, if I take the cork out of my arse I might explode.  No need for a pencil then. LOL.  

I've been doing my course work, which has been challenging, but great fun.  We have to write a 2 bar phrase, then make a 2 minute composition using nothing but that phrase, so not much to work with!  But I might actually write another one with the same principles, because I've had so much fun doing it :)

Happy holidays!

YAY! I'm going home tomorrow!  Can't WAIT.

(I'm coming Ronald!!!)

Ham is nice... On a Roll

It really has been a WOW day.

I woke up, after a great night's sleep, feeling wide eyed and fresh - a feeling I've lacked for a long while.  Felt like I've had a new set of eyes again.  I had a nice long shower, ate my breakfast cleaned my teeth at a nice leisurely pace, lying in bed listening to relaxing music for a while, before starting work at about 11ish.  I then got one of my essays done by 2:00, had a nice lunch, then started on my Motif coursework at about 3ish.  I've just got to chop some things up and play around with levels and I'm done!  Awesome.

I'm determined to finish that piece of course work tonight so that it's another load off my shoulders, then I'll probably chill out with a film, or just get another good night's sleep under my belt so I can have another wow day tomorrow lol

Happy WOW day everyone :)

Like. W.O.W.

happy WOW day!

Pencil?

So many things to say, 

So little words to say them with.

THE coolest, bananary T-shirt you will ever see, in your life.

I was in Camden yesterday with Dean and Alex, and I was telling them how cool it would be if I were to find a t shirt that said cool bananas on it.  Lo and behold, a tshirt shop, where you can make your own designs, pops into eye sight!  So I wrote on a piece of paper what I wanted on the front (photobooth like to take backward pictures, sorry, but you get the idea) and WOW i even have a picture of a banana on the back!  And what's more, the writing and banana, GLOWS IN THE DARK!!!  (and is also UV reactive) .  *Ahhh in glee* How totally awesome.  My tshirt has total ownage.  LOL.

Fairy Lights and Snow

Isn't it lovely, when you wake up, forgetting that it was forcast to snow, turning on your Christmas fairy lights then looking out your window to find that it's all white outside :)  Followed by some good news.

Not as much as snow last time, there's barely enough to make a foot print in the ground, but it's incredibly beautiful.

It's now, however, raining, so by the time of my train this afternoon, the snow would have melted and I'll be on my way to Camden market.

Ok, feeling better, a talk to Thomas always cheers me up :)

Ok, sleep, London tomorrow.

Nice thoughts, go away emotions.

Home soon, Ronald is itching for me to play him yay ^^

awsome pie.

Cake tastes good.

All lovely and dandy.

Hmmm

Today I have felt... awkward.  Why am I so fricking emotional lately?  there's no logical explanation.  My head feels like it's been mashed up and words refuse to come out of my mouth.  I couldn't even make a bloody cake properly (and that's the Freddie speciality).

And it's just bloody great having such stupidly sensitive and painful knees.  I hit them about 15 minutes ago and they're still burning and throbbing painfully.

*sigh*.

A ring and ding a ling a ding dong running through my head.  Now it's time for bed.

Ring a ding dong!

Every year, for years, I try and try and try to write a decent Christmas song, and fail, miserably.

So I was on my way to bed, and suddenly this Christmas song just poured out of my brain like there's no tomorrow!  Ok, so no lyrics yet, but hey it is three am.  I'm gonna have a nice long lie in tomorrow looool!   Wow, I'm in such a good mood, must not get hyper... again... this late at night!  Oh well, tis a Friday night after all, I could be wasting my time clubbing :P

YAY!!!!! :D

GRRRRR.

Wow, I've had a hot headed temper today.

Who knows why.  it's not even PMT, no where bloody near.  Things have just really really bugged me today, ever since I stressed out about my stupid score.  (Thank you so much, by the way).  I thought it was good looking enough, but no. I panicked when she said that we weren't allowed flats as accidentals.  I was then convinced that I had a key change that didnt exist because the score became "messy" when I change the flats into sharps. which I know is just stupid because I knew that I hadn't changed key, but I didn't understand and couldn't for the life of me read the music, just because the page now looked messy.  I got there in the end.  Stupid me.  Then someone else pisses me off by saying something stupid.  Then more horrible comments piss me off and I'm really feeling at the end of my tether.  And good job for down stairs guy that he called me a man etc and made fun of my voice yesterday and not today, because he wouldn't have much of a face left if he had turned on me today.  So I'm avoiding him tonight.  Becuase I can literally feel my blood boiling.  Ok, breathe.  I'm gonna go relax in the bath and eat chocolate lol.  And yay! tonight, I'm decorating my house all christmasy, and in true Freddie style, I'm gonna go all out :D  Ok, so now I'm feeling better :)

POST BLOG:

Wow, what a difference some smiles from friends combined with Christmas decorating, dancing and singing with house mates can make!  I'm now feeling all warm and fuzzy and getting the good old Christmas feeling back :)  ahhh, what a great evening

A Small, Hairy Girl.

I woke up early this morning, and had a revelation.

She's gone.

The last time I remember talking about her was when she was standing, looking down under her long brown hair, on the altar.

I can't actually remember the day that she disappeared.  I've literally only just realised, that she's gone.

I wonder who she was.  Perhaps the story was right.  Perhaps she was a past, that no longer matters.  Perhaps, I don't need her anymore.  Goodbye, little girl, sleep tight.  For you have returned to where you belong.

la la la la la la!

Freddie is in such a good mood!

I've just danced round my room to Jack Johnson's "Hope."

And I'm practically laughing my guts up!  yay!

Hahahaha!

Best comment for people who walk in on a conversation at the wrong moment!

Lydia: "... I will lend you mine, and you can see how good it feels..."

Freddie: "HA!"

We were of course talking about Filofaxes and how good it feels to be organised LOL

The last blog is nothing dodgey AT ALL.  

Just something to pass the time and annoy friends during a lecture so  that I could go home and talk to Thomas in what felt like quicker time.

:)

night world, I'm about to land on my face.

Today, my blog is about Alex.

do do do do do do do do (from Harry potter)

ON TOUR

uurgh (sounded like mr. bean)

laugh.

"not everything"

cross legged.

un tangling head phones.

playing with ipod case

TOOL

occasionally leaning forward to look at itunes on macbook.

itchy nose.

macbook goes to sleep, he wakes it up again.

ooh, too loud.

fingers crossed.

not any more.

itchy forehead.

SCROLL to more tool.

ooh, too quiet.

How I love my hair.

Still cross legged, how does he do it?

Phones come out, arms get crossed.

looks over to the blog.  

looks at me, LOL.

again.

POINT.

WTF?!

haha.

searches mac

looks over again

and again

wtf?

He doesnt love his hair.

crossed again.

what?

hehehe.

my neck.

what?

oh god.

what?

hehe.

one leg down (not THAT one)

one hand to face

smile.

crick his neck

clap.

POKE (me, argh)

feet on chair

rings (how i hate them on metal)

what?

tap.

I'm reviewing the situation hands.

and again, but with a beat!

smirk.

crossed arms.

ooh, itchy foot or ass, not quite sure.

FOOT.

neck.

lol.

un tangle himself

stretch.

BARE FOOT!

speak.

seven, dont worry.

I didnt say dont worry.

heh.

headphones.

hitch up.

cross legged and armed again.

roll up sleeves.

grab ipod.

oh, crossed arms at same time as me!

rapour.

wtf, are, you, doing?

hands on legs, tap tap tap.

Woah, this is gonna be a long blog, we're only half an hour in!

cuz im doing everything, lets cut down a bit.

okie pokie

with a beat again! but ooh, different.

breathe.

crossed arms

lick.. hair tastes gooood.

does this make you paraniod?

HAHAHA.

one leg down (not that one!)

crick the neck.

bouncy leg.

tap.

we've got repeats.

CLAP ON YOUR OWN!

screw you 

LOL

up yours sign.

 (how rude : P )

wake up mac

oh no, put to sleep.

leg on table.

brass.

neck.

one leg down, one leg up.

sigh.

play with hair.

yoink.

stretch

me, ok, her.

BREAK TIME.

unrealistic.

really really old.

do the wave!

did it work?

itchy nose

ipod.

leaning on desk.

figit.

nails.

itchy leg

gets up, walks over, ipod in hand.

How epic!

at the front of the class.

TOOL.

more interesting production than music.

oh freddie, you're so naughty.

leaning on hand, listening to his favourite band. (hey that rhymes!)

catches my eyes, little smile. 

looks away.

back to leaning on his hand, listening to his favourite band.

looks over at people who are talking.

glance.

itch.

looking down.

goes into the next track.

explanation.

intimate.

not EQed like normal.

nod.

itchy head.

walks back.

sits back down.

lifts up and wakes up mac.

i pod put down.

shoes back on...

mow kind of off

you're trying to trick me

ha.

crossed legged again!

yummy, hair.

one leg down (no not that one!)

phone time.

to the beat oh yeah.

crossed arms.

lolerskates :P

grime-y

wiggle.

suck on fingers.

hair.

tap on belt.

...

chewing on fingers. (nails) ra ra ra!

yum!

lies on desk, loses will to live :P

POKE.  no effect god damn it.

goes to poke me, I can feel it already looooool

ARGH

arse wipe.

he got me!

I dance, he taps.

la la la . (that was me)

BEAT

head nod 

heh!

chew on nails. tut tut.

poke again.... squirm!

you're enjoying this way to much 

JUMP

I'm gonna turn off now, as battery is loooow.

any last words, Alex?

naa.

what fun! ^^

POKE!

This Woman's Work.

A beautiful song, that popped up again recently, when I couldn't sleep.  And it's just come on my itunes random.  So many songs have come up today.  So many different meanings, journeys and feelings.

 

This song is probably one of the most beautiful songs I've ever heard.  And it means a fair bit to me too in many ways.  The way she sings it is just, perfect.  The emotion in her voice, the sound of the piano, gives me shivers... and the words, are just so very powerful.

I highly recommend you listen to it, in the dark, when you're in one of those deep thought moods.

Pray God you can cope. 
I stand outside this woman's work, 
This woman's world. 
Ooh, it's hard on the man, 
Now his part is over. 
Now starts the craft of the father. 

I know you have a little life in you yet. 
I know you have a lot of strength left. 
I know you have a little life in you yet. 
I know you have a lot of strength left. 

I should be crying, but I just can't let it show. 
I should be hoping, but I can't stop thinking 

Of all the things I should've said, 
That I never said. 
All the things we should've done, 
That we never did. 
All the things I should've given, 
But I didn't. 

Oh, darling, make it go, 
Make it go away. 

Give me these moments back. 
Give them back to me. 
Give me that little kiss. 
Give me your hand. 

(I know you have a little life in you yet. 
I know you have a lot of strength left. 
I know you have a little life in you yet. 
I know you have a lot of strength left.) 

I should be crying, but I just can't let it show. 
I should be hoping, but I can't stop thinking 

Of all the things we should've said, 
That were never said. 
All the things we should've done, 
That we never did. 
All the things that you needed from me. 
All the things that you wanted for me. 
All the things that I should've given, 
But I didn't. 

Oh, darling, make it go away. 
Just make it go away now.

Let Me Live!

OMG!!  I LOVE itunes random!!  Queen fever is most certainly making a come back.  The yellow jacket is everywhere in my room now and I keep on listening to Queen songs I had completely forgotten about, and how much I love them!  Like Let Me Live, probably one of my favourite songs of all time, had just come on random, and it just made me smile so so so so so so much!! :D  And all my love for Queen just comes flooding back, and I get incredibly excited lol... yayyy!!!! I remember all the words and everything about the songs and it just makes me feel like my obsession never stopped!

I LOVE QUEEN!!!

(helen rolls her eyes!)

Just everything about the song I love, Gospel choir, Freddie's amazingly powerful and addictive voice, Roger and Brian singing too.  It's crazy to think they wrote this song after Freddie's death, out of a few vocal demos that he left behind.  That's another thing I love about music, it really does let you live on in minds and hearts, forever.  Oh yeah.  Moustache fever, darling!

Why dont you take another little piece of my heart
Why dont you take it and break it
And tear it all apart
All I do is give
All you do is take
Baby why dont you give me
A brand new start

So let me live (so let me live)
Let me live (leave me alone)
Let me live, oh baby
And make a brand new start

Why dont you take another little piece of my soul
Why dont you shape it and shake it till youre really in control
All you do is take
And all I do is give
All that Im askin
Is a chance to live

(so let me live) - so let me live
(leave me alone) - let me live, let me live
Why dont you let me make a brand new start

And its a long hard struggle
But you can always depend on me
And if youre ever in trouble - hey
You know where I will be

Why dont you take another little piece of my life
Why dont you twist it, and turn it
And cut it like a knife
All I do is live
All I do is die
Why cant we just be friends
Stop livin a lie

So let me live (so let me live)
Let me live (leave me alone)
Please let me live
(why dont you live a little)
Oh yeah baby
(why dont you give a little love...? )

Let me live
Please let me live
Oh yeah baby, let me live
And make a brand new start

Take another little piece of my heart now baby
Take another little piece of my heart now baby
Take another little piece of my soul now baby
Take another little piece of my life now baby

In your heart, oh baby

(take another piece, take another piece)
Please let me live
(take another piece, take another piece)
Why dont you take another piece
Take another little piece of my heart

Oh yeah baby
Make a brand new start
All you do is take
Let me live

chugga chugga chugga

Woooaaah!  What's with me lately?

Uni life seems to be turning me into quite a normal teenager!  or perhaps it's my body making the most of the fact that I've only got one year left of calling myself one.

Most of you will be proud to know, that I, Freddie, early bird of the century, woke up naturally at 11 am.  I NEVER used to do that, unless I was seriously ill lol.

Ok, so I didn't get to sleep till about 3 ish (I just couldn't bloody well sleep again, work and lively music going round and round my head)

I swear, my sleep-ometre is degrading as I get older.  How odd to think that I used to wake up at the time I'm now falling asleep, to go swimming of all things.  It then took me no time at all to get used to lying in till 6:30 am, ready for school!  And now, I'm struggling to get up at 8:00!!

What the hell is happening to me!!??  lol  (Marina, welcome back to blog world!)

Sleeeeeeeeeeeeeep.

I haven't been myself today at all.  I found it hard to get up, I've found it hard to move, I've found it hard to eat, I've found it hard to smile and laugh and I've found it hard to think.

I wrote some lyric ideas for an absolutely pumping awesome track this morning, dancing round my room whilst singing, but then after that, I went straight back into the walking dead mode.  I don't know why.  My head and neck are aching and old dick head from down stairs is starting to piss me off even more and it's getting me down.  Endless company of just boys is starting to get to me too.  They're not like good ol' Jersey boys either.  Same horrible phrases and jokes day in day out.  Talking about nothing but video games and sex all bloody day.  I really need some friendly team marmite girl company right now, but I don't have any.  I can't wait till my sleep over at home.  40 / 40 in the dark, girlie talks and catch ups, films and in jokes with the best buddies in the world.

*sigh*  right, well I'm now off to bed with death metal in my ears (from down stairs, dan is on guitar hero and it's so fucking loud I can hear the music as if it were being played at a decent level in my room.  I think I'm gonna go ask him to turn it down a bit.)  Wow, Victoria, you're so boring, it's only eleven o'clock.  urgh.  listen to me moan.  right, cheer up Charlie, it aint that bad.  At least my head is nice and quiet.  Just home is where your piano is and stars revolving nicely round.  And I think it's high time I went for a bike ride.

Night night bloggers, see you in a better tomorrow. 

I LOVE MUSIC!!!! (amen!)

You know, I find it fascinating how differently  people can hear / interpret one piece of music.  Yesterday, I composed a random piece in about an hour, and I don't think it sounds like what I normally write, yet it still is very much in my style of writing.  I showed it to quite a few people, as we have a lecture in the evening where we have to show what we're currently working on.

One person said it was a cross between me and the black eyed peas, and needs a rap...

One person said it very much reminded him of Elfman's more orchestral Oingo Boingo days...

One person said I needed dark lyrics, as it portrayed a sense of dark destiny...

One person said it sounds perfect for a film or epic video game...

And another person said it should be turned into the next Christmas single no.1, with a haunting Christmas choir singing the lyrics...!

Amazing!  There were more interpretations, but I just find it so amazing how music can do that, and how it represents something completely different to different people. :)

TTFN, Tits and Testicles For Now

Yo yo, yo, 

All my bitches and hoes

Y'all not wearin any clothes...

There aint no better way

When your top half's fun

And your bottom half is gay...

I'm Miss Hermaphrodi-tee-hee

(yo, yo yo, tits and testicles you'll see)

Yes, Miss Hermaphrodi-tee-hee

(oh yeah, havin both is bein free, yo)

hi hi fly by bye bye

*sigh* so helen went home today... we swore to each other as the bus drove her away, and I was left with a huge grin for hours after that.  I will feel a little lonely tonight without her to talk to or rescue the most gigantic spider ever from my room.  (well, she saved it from the perils of the beneath of my shoe, but hey ho).. but i do not have that horrible empty feeling, as I shall be seeing all my mateys again in 5 weeks.  what a great week end it has been :)

Vanity Fair?

What's the big ho0O-har about vanity?

Everyone I've met cares at least a little about how they look, and almost everyone I've met have taken at least one of those posey pictures in which you secretly think you look good, but would never show any one or tell anyone that you think that.  And I've never net anyone who said they hated being called pretty or good looking or handsome or "hot".. haha.  What's so bad about feeling good about yourself, and why are we made to feel bad for doing so?

Just a random thought as I was taking a posey picture of myself when I got bored. lol.

Hells Bells! what a day!

woke up pretty early and started on a Christmas song, for some strange reason!

took us till about one to decide that I was going to show Helen round campus, and then all of a sudden i was like, dya wanna go to London?  so by two we were in king's cross, gaping mouths at st. Pancras and into the dreaded tubes.. urgh.

we survived and went shopping all down Oxford street, I got a winter jumper that is very "me" and Helen got a green jumper dress that is very "her".  lol.  selfriges had the most beautiful and awesome Christmas displays in their windows with the slogan, the more the merrier.  It truly felt like Christmas is coming, and it got me all excited, even Helen admitted to it feeling like Christmas!!  but then got angry that it made her feel all warm and fuzzy inside :P

We are now going to chill out after a rather hefty day, and watch some films...

Oooh, any one fancy coming down to London for a few days to watch Edward Scissorhands.. the musical?!?!  like OMFG, we have GOT to go!!!  how awesome would that be, to hear Ice dance being played live by a proper professional orchestra?!

yay!  I'm excited again!  good night blog world :) And a very merry Christmas, from the Christmas Girl x

(pictures on the way, they wont upload atm!)

Oh, welcome to the delights of Hatfield!

yayyyy!!!   I actually cant wait till tomorrow!! Hells Bells shall beith ariving in doth Hertfordshire for the weekend!! :D :D

Yay!

Rainin' On The Rooftops.

A bad day that's better than my good old days... thank you.

I thought it was about time I wrote a song about the rain...

I don't know what it is, but I just love it.  Love it.  It cools, clenses, it sounds manificent and has a beauty all of its own.  It makes me pour out my soul and just feel like nothing else, the best feeling in the world.  It's like the true, inner me, is allowed to come out and play and dance and sing.  And music just seems to sound so much better in the rain.

On a completely different note: the funniest and strangest question I got asked by a guy today:  "Can girls tell when you've come on you period?"  LOOOOOL!!!

Pop, shh, da ka fa, do dah boooom!

I've just been set an awesome piece of coursework.

I have to record ten seconds worth of sounds made from only my mouth and throat.

I then have to put them into a sampler, assign them to keys and create a one minute long composition, mucking around with time and space, stretching, manipulating and filtering.

yay! What fun!  =^-^=  (har har!  all you losers are doing essays on Hitler and shiz and reading your souls away!  hahahah! :D   )

ARGH!!!

Who would have thought, that writing for a single, solo instrument, would be

SO FRICKEN DIFFICULT!!!!   

*mumble grumble bloody violin bloody grumble grrr...*